Confession: I was scared to tell my mom I was seeing a white guy

I don’t really have anyone else to say this to, so here I am. I’m a Filipina woman in Chicago and I’ve been seeing this white guy for about 3 months now. We met on Bumble and he’s honestly been really sweet, not pushy at all, and way more patient than guys I’ve dated before. The issue is I still haven’t told my mom the full truth, because every time I think about it I get this weird knot in my stomach. My mom is the type who says she “doesn’t care who you date” and then turns around and makes comments about staying with our own kind. She’s not terrible, but she can be judgmental in that quiet way that hits harder. I already know she’s going to ask if he knows how to eat our food, if he can handle our family, and probably some other awkward stuff. Part of me feels dumb because I’m 29 and should be able to deal with this, but I guess I’m still scared of disappointing her.